summer nights

i spent most of my summer nights with strangers, talking to them about love & life at 3 in the morning and laughing about being so dramatic 2 hours later. i spent most of my summer nights getting cozy with cigarettes and alcohol that sparked a different kind of flame in my heart. i spent most of my summer nights getting to know the people who have failed my heart and pumped the blood around my nerves. i spent most of my summer nights listening to songs that soothe me and move me instead of your voice. i spent most of my summer nights feeling alone, even when i was around a lot of people. i spent most of my summer nights fighting with you or missing you, either way i was not being with you. i spent most of my summer nights without you and i would do anything to take it all back just to have those summer nights with you because all those nights i was always wishing it was you. i spent most of my summer nights evolving and turning into a different person that im afraid when the summer is over and the nights is all i have left, i will spend them ever more lonely and even less in love.

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